Feeling stressed up recently, i really hate to be responsible for everything. I really hope everything will end soon. I hate to make decision or being forced to do some things which i dont wanna do. Haiz. I hate my life. Sometimes i wish i have an ordinary family, living life like how a 22 years old should be living. Even though i am 22 now, i feel like my responsibility level is a 30+ years old person's responsibility. People my age no need to think so much like me, they can work, earn $$$, spend it and enjoy life. Not that i dont do those but i need to do extra stuff on top of that. I really hate it. FML! I realised i dont have a person to turn to for my problems except for my boyf, he cant help me much cause he also got his own stuff to do. I really really wanna be strong but sometimes i need a guidance from a senior. I am not so strong to carry everything myself but i know at the end of the day the only person who can help me is me and no one else. Haiz. I shall stop being emo and stop ranting about my life.

On the other hand, i feel so happy cause after going to the D3000 course, i have the urge to take more pictures, i learnt quite alot of things in the course. I am inspired to take nicer pictures. Sometimes i wished i could be a photographer. I love taking pictures, maybe just not up to the standard yet. Maybe someone can hire me soon, i wanna take beautiful pictures for people and myself!! Loving my DSLR to the max now! HAHAHA! I think i should start considering if i should take on the basic photo class after i settle my stuff, for now i think i should just focus on what i need to do before doing my passion! That's all for now! Good night people! (: