Finally AL is here! The long awaited AL. I thought it will be a happy AL for me cause i am going HK but something unexpected happened on my last night which makes me really really sad and no mood anymore. Haiz. I really thought you have learnt your lesson and turned over a new leaf and wanted to start anew but nooooo, you went back to your old ways. Haiz. A leopard never changes it's spot is really true, i shouldnt trust you so much from the start. Now all i am left with it's disappointment. I know i have gone through this before but i guess everytime it just feels different. I cried so much yesterday cause i feel sad/angry/disappointed/lost... Things will never be the same again. I missed everything you did for me but now all i have left is the memories cause you will never be able to do all these things for me anymore. I feel so lonely most of the time, i envy people who has family cause i never have a so call family for the 22 years of my life, maybe the only time was before my grandfather passed away. Now the only thing that keeps me going is my boyfriend, if one day he ever leave me, i think i will breakdown and just leave here cause there is no meaning for me to be here in the first place. I know i sound very emotional which i am but i guess this is the only place that i can vent out all my emotions without being worried or anything. I have to be a stronger person now as i need to accept the fact and continue to move on. Thank you for giving me wonderful memories of us and thank you for making me heart broken once again. I will mend my broken heart in HK and will be back a new me! (: